Nov. 1, 2013

A friend of mine suggested that I start a blog.  She thinks my words are powerful.  I must admit when I read the message from her I kind of giggled inside.  Me, writing?!  I responded by telling her that if I were truly honest with her, I actually hate writing.  That is 100% truth.  I teach math, not words.  I have never enjoyed writing, but the opposite…. Numbers.  Although I really do “hate” writing, there is something about putting my thoughts and feelings into words that allows for healing to take place. 

For anyone who does not know me, this first blog will be me in a nut shell.  My name is Christina and I married my husband Brandon in July of 2006.  I have always been a planner, and so I planned out our life so meticulously.  We get married, spend the first five years of our marriage saving money for our future and our dream house, have children after getting to know each other and growing together for five years, move into our dream house and all while living out my passion teaching in my very own classroom.  For anyone who knows me, my plans don’t seem to be the same plans as our Heavenly Father.  Yes, we got married.  Yes, we purchased a house and lived there for five (plus two) years.  But, that is basically where my plans fell apart. 

My husband has been laid off two times since we got married.  During this time, I was never working a full time teaching job.  I taught in several grades for maternity leaves and then some part time title one positions.  The savings for our dream house sure didn’t happen right away, but we are working on that. 

In 2010, I was finally given the opportunity to put my teaching talents to work in my own classroom.  But, in 2011, I was told that I may be laid off due to funding.  Short lived dream, right?!  Thank God, I was never laid off and I continue to teach fifth grade math and science.  (NOT reading and writing!!)

In late 2011, my husband and I begin to think about expanding our family.   Thinking is basically all we could accomplish as nearly 9 months go by of trying and nothing happened.  In the beginning of 2012, we decide it is time to look for some help.  I start seeing drs at a reproductive endocrinologist.  If you do the math, I am already a year behind MY timeline of starting a family.  After 6 months of tests and medicine, we become pregnant.  Much to our surprise, we were expecting triplets.  Things were going well for a while, until a late October appointment.  At this point my planning, took another turn.  (I’m not going in to too many details about this pregnancy right now as I want it to be part of other posts in the near future).  Long story short, our miracle triplets were born at 20 weeks and passed straight on to heaven.  

For the 9 months after our babies’ birth, I worked on getting my health and mind healthy enough to try for a family again.  Labor Day 2013, we got another positive pregnancy test.  WOW, I was so excited to have another opportunity to become a mom of an earthly child.  Again, my plans were MY plans and not God’s plans.  Our first ultrasound showed a sac, but no heartbeat. 

And here we are.  Married, childless, but have a great home and are both employed.  I know we are truly blessed because we have each other and family who support us through everything.  So, I guess this blog is going to be my thoughts, memories, ideas, and just daily dealings while we proceed through life, hopefully with children in our near future.  At times my thoughts may seem random, but, that is part of what makes me, me. 

I’m not sure how often I will write, to what extent I will write, or if this will even live up to what my friend thinks I am capable of, but here I go.  I am ready to give it a try!!!